Today I now sit facing procrastination, fear and a big dollop of motivationlessness (it’s a new word…). When I do not find the time, and ring fence it solidly in my diary, to play and create everything suffers. I am frustrated, listless, fearful and stuck. I see umpteen projects around me that are started but not complete and I find myself doing so much that I feel “should” be done and shifting my desire to play and create to the back burner. I find myself wishing I could just be happy whatever, I am met with confusion and dismay at a lack of focus or clarity. I have completed my meditation for today, I felt wonderfully calm for a while, so why the faff?!
I am going to give up asking why and analysing and find myself an action to shift things along a bit.
Tomorrow evening I shall go for a run and Friday morning I shall go to the studio for a couple of hours to take some photos of my found glass, tidy up and start setting some goals.
I am going to open up my home for the Arts Trail in Easton at the beginning of May, so I have something to aim for. Or I rather like the idea of being involved in showing/selling some things within the Easton Community Centre. I went there today for a cuppa with a friend and it wondered why I don’t go there more often! It’s a great space. This is calling me into action. Even if it just a few cushions and small pieces, I need something to commit to and work towards.
On that note I am going to get sewing. I have been planning some “old school sew and sews” for a while.